I'm in LOVE

:: How my heart looks like ::

:: What my heart says all days ::

Salaam peeps,

Homigod! I'm in Love.You know love? Yeah, love...Should I say "yay!"? Perhaps, I should.

When I read my peeps' writings, overall, they wrote about love. Maybe, those are all the genuine love from Allah. I bet, I got it all a month ago. Yes, I swear.

If Arlina wrote about being in love with her future-profession that is to be a successful surgeon, and if Deeb wrote about being in love with God and crushing from a distance, I would like to write about my passion in, not much, in Everything.

" The antidote to exhaustion is wholeheartedness "

Many people might say that doing everything is wearying us. As the quote above says, doing things wholeheartedly can cure tiredness. Take a moment and imagine. Do you agree with the quote? I do. I'm in love with everything that sometimes I wish not to.

First, I love myself to the fullest. I don't take a sh*t of what people say about me anymore. Badmouth me or passing by me with wrinkles on their faces, who cares? I love the skills in me. I love the way I befriend people and how I communicate. I love my family busy-ness and how they treated my as the apple of their eyes. I love my siblings and the moment we had fight on food thingy. I love my laptop and the colours in it. I love the books on my desk and how they inspired me to become a better person. I love the way I dressed and how I drive my old-timer car. I love my bedroom which at most of the time it is my suite of life. I love my life which Allah lent, to be enjoyed in the very holistic way. Alhamdulillah.

Next, I love my studies. Though I am taking Law Studies (which at first I hated to death), I am doing it wholeheartedly and will perform with excellence at the end so that I won't be exhausted. You should know something, and that something is my ultimate love after Allah. My passion in English Studies will not be faded away by anything. I'm extremely enthusiastic in English Studies though my English level is not as Great as Qayyum and not as excellent as Nabila Yusop and not as high as Ameera Mahpudz and not as British as Adilah Roslan and not as fluent as Amir Azfar and......nobody is as passionate as Me. If Arlina made a Vlog (video blogging) regarding her love in Medical World, I should make a poem for my love in Linguistic World:

Between my love and my heart

things were happening which

slowly slowly

made me recall everything

You amuse me with your touch

although I can't see your hands.

You have kissed me with tenderness

although I haven't seen your lips

You are hidden from me.

But it is you who keeps me alive

Perhaps the time will come

when you will tire of kisses

I shall be happy

even for insults from you

I only ask that you

keep some attention on me.

I love languages, and I love literature. I'm in love and note that being in love with something is different than loving something. Oh literature! Yesterday, I checked my youngest sister's book list for Form 4 and I discovered that the literature component for secondary school has changed a lot. There will be no boring Bukit Kepong Novel and Sonnet 18 anymore. It is the novel of somehow Papa...... and the Short Stroies of Qwertyuiop. Plus, the drama element. Oh my, how interesting they are, I've read them last night, with all my heart. OMG!

Next, I love the physique of mine. Though I am not petite, I love my size. Remember, every cloud has its silver lining, so do I. With this plus size, I can imitate the mimics of a lecturer when entering UiTM main gate. and with this plus size, I can get lower price in bargaining goods and with this size I can fit into shoes of size 8 and also with this size my father has sent me to the gym and I can be strong and fit again!! I do agree that most of the men out there always have their turn ons on petite slim women but for my future Mr. Right, he wouldn't care of other men's turn ons. Have Faith.

Next, I should stop listing cos I love everything. Gimme anything that burden you, I love it. Gimme anything you fear, I love it. I love everything and the feeling is not much differ from being in love with your mate. Trust me, wholeheartedness is the entire love.

Thanks for reading, Au Revoir.

love,

ballqiszbelle :D

The Friday Off

Salaam 'Ala'ik....

The Friday-Off really makes me happy.

The end of next week will surely makes everyone happy cos that will be the beginning of our mid-sem break till next year...Bahahaha....I just can't wait to gather with my beloved seniors back in Perlis. I really miss you guys, a lot.

I do have buts for that. Next week will be V hectic for us. A lot of assignments to be submitted and test to be performed. I should list them so that my weekends may be filled wisely. Oh, I'll be heading to Malacca this afternoon, poorly to say, Atie won't be going with me. It's OK babe, we'll meet some other time.

NEXT WEEK'S STUFFS:

- Bel 332 Forum Presentation 30% (Monday)
- Economy Tutorial Questions (Monday)
- Law 2 Assignments: 5 Differences between Common and Civil Law (Monday)
- Law 3 Tutorial Questions (Tuesday) and Test 10% (Wednesday)
- Bel 342 Drafting for term paper (Tuesday)
- Global Issues Test 10% (Thursday)
- Law 1 Revision with Pn Ezan, Answer last sem final Questions, submit (Wednesday)
- Psychology Script for Role Play, title: Psychology in Courts (Wednesday)

*THe Red Colour indicates if-I-do-not-do-i-will-die-immediately assignments.


It may seem a short list, but for law students, they'll know how the short list became complicated at the end. And it seems, I have and must go through the list before the awaited mid-sem break! Yes, I'm strong for that and yet I still have the willingness to go to Malacca.

Stress off and see ya....


love,
ballqiszbelle.

Laughter finally appears

Salaam 'Ala'ik people,

After a year of suffering, the laughter finally arrives under my nose. At last, I can feel myself; breathing through its two nostrils and initiated by my inner spirit. Not an ordinary spirit. Now, I can love everybody with their very own portion of my heart, without any doubt. I might hate people, or just went by people without craving any curve of smile, because of they are the one who hates me. I am very certain here, I studied for this with Madam Carol. She says: ' if we want people do things great to us, we must think positive and do the same'. I won't care about what people want to argue, I will always stick to that phrase, I really believe in it.

Me and Syue.

Homigod! I might miss the Year End Sale. The Asasi Allowance has not yet in our account. My shopping list has almost being eaten by ants. I need my vitamins, that is surely shopping spree-ing. Now, I have almost fully-enriched my Patience Side. Silalah beri duit cepat encik!

Grievance, daughter of Dr. Harcharan Singh [my English Lecturer in UiTM] had passed away last Monday, because of cancer. I am sorry to him and his family for her late daughter. May God be with you, strengthen you and your family.

As my Laughter Side increasing its energy, I will always be thankful to Allah for this feeling. I know that life has its ups and downs and I should prepare for the worst. We befriend people because of Allah and being separated because of Allah too. Now, as I really can feel myself better, I should use this Golden Opportunity to the fullest.

Peeps, I love you.


lots of love,
ballqiszbelle.

I Loathed the Motorists

Salaam Readers,

Ohho, today we got the day off. Dr. Harcharan suddenly sulking. I am happy for that but something had pissed me off - the Motorists.

Yes, I'm a P licensee. Plus, driving the manual system, and that's not the main point. I hate the motorists, hate till death. If you have ever drive a car, you will notice what I am trying to let out here. Are we mutual? I hope we are cos I'm tired bewaring them alone.

And, if I have the power, I should ban them on the road or perhaps making the motor-route compulsory on every highways. Vote for me, please??

MOOD: so exhausted and quite happy for some reasons.



Assignments, and all makes me alive. Peace off. :D


Need some drugs,
ballqiszbelle the gorgeous.

To Define Clearly, perhaps Vividly.

Salaam 'Ala'ik.

It's up to you now, babe. I am free from your mastery. I am just going to say thanks to your new peeps [???] and thanks for replacing my post. Hope you'll be happy with them and maybe happier than with me. Ha ha, I'm glad. :D

OMG, last Wednesday I've been super nocturnal. Me and Aiman had decided to spend the night together with her boy friends. So, I grabbed the car's key and went out with them, from 1.00AM till 4.30AM. I was elated but some of the moments had been tarnished by a little bit of reminiscing by me and myself. I remembered the time I was in school and the memory of being into stressless life. That night was somehow like that. I knew that life would not always be a bed of roses. So, I must go on.

Being alone in my own house had made me grew. I am not like what you think. If you think I am evil by leaving my ex bestfriend, you're wrong. And to her, If you think I left you because of someone, you are also wrong. To me, I just want to be free, that's all. We are still friends and please remove the gap between new friends and old friends. Generally, if once named friends, new or old should not be mentioned. Hope you understand me, cos you've been with me all the time last semester. Peace off.

OH assignments. I need to finish them before Monday comes. By next week, I hope the negative charges will disappear. I just need peace. And, and Allah does love EVERYBODY.





love,
Ballqiszbelle.

The Self

Salaam 'Ala'ik,

The self will not always be perfect. Sometimes, it's a misery to be found. Perhaps, mystified by others. I should not blame others for what it means. I'm back to 'The Self' version even the truth is there's a sea of people supporting me. I hate people because I love myself.

The past three days, I was shocked when someone told me, his friend hates me. Actually, I was not literally surprised, but it changed when I remembered the meaning of professionalism. He is not professional at all. I was pissed off, but yet it decreased when I compared the total of people hating him and me. Plus, he compared his blogging style with mine. Oh, how sucks you are dude!

The self goes. Currently, I am working to get back mySelf from nature. One suitable word for me, I'm a claustrophobic. I hate being in surrounded places, with people of many behaviour. In short, I'm private. Now, you can judge me in your ways, you're free cos I am me and I will pay for my lack.

I am no longer staying in the hostel. I am frustrated with my final exam's results. I just planning ways to improve. Let me try by staying at home for the rest of the semester. If it is not working, I'm ready being in the hot soup. The self might work here, but I miss hostel life. Madam Carol reminded me about being present, so that we can feel the world. I should be present now, and not living for the past or the future, I am doing my effort to live to the fullest.



love,
Qiszbelle Quinne

Home is the best CURE

I'm home after the college registration.
Cannot stand the unsystematic admin.

Way better at home.

Will be super early tomorrow, tumpang Zetty to Shah Alam.
Extra thanks to Syamel, and also Zetty.

Next time, I'll board the bus to class.
Don't worry, I am super happy (=

New Semester, New Style, New Hope.

Love,
Qiszbelle Quinne